Life Doesn't End With 50!

JUNE 2010

My oldest daughter turned 9 over the weekend! I cannot believe it! What a beautiful young preteen I have. The weekend was a mess, I didn't run like I should, and ate everything available in the house. No... no... I'm not beating myself up over the ordeal! I'm just going to get back on the wagon and try harder from here on out! We went to the lake Saturday, for my oldest daughter's birthday. As I slipped into my suit, I knew "I" had not "arrived" at my true goal. What was funny... the suit I wore last summer, now bagged off my boody. So I've lost it there... hmmmm... and in the boobs... what's going to be left when I get done! I wish the belly fat would go... "Keep eating the right foods, NO STRESS... exercise, and stay away from refined sugars!" HARD WORK, Clean eating... HARD WORK... I'm going to work harder! My husband says I'm fine the way I am. Unless I'm happy with "me" then, its not fine. My self image affects everything in my life, my relationship with my spouse, children... friends.... and myself. I'm gonna get out of this wagon and get behind it and push it over a cliff! I'm gonna win... win the battle of the waddle... the battle of the unhealthy fat around my waste... it's going down... and when it does...it's NEVER coming back!

MID JUNE!

My eating isn't where it should be, and I've gotten a bit discouraged. I continue to run and workout, but the motivation I initially had, I feel is depleating. I'm almost done with school, taken on a few more children, and seem to be extremely busy trying to find things for the older children to do, to prevent boredom! I'm NOT giving in or up... I'm planning to order some more "Clean Eating" books by Tosca Reno (one for feeding the kids and hubby!) and I'm checking in with bodybuilding.com regularly to see what I should be doing for my workouts. I just got my NEW OXYGEN magazine, and that, in itself is much motivation! I'm gonna keep trying and set goals that I can accomplish! I'll git-r done!