Life Doesn't End With 50!

My weight has been a formidable opponent of mine for many, many years. To be exact, it has been the bane of my existence, my worst nightmare, my most hated adversary.

Here of late, I haven't been feeling all that well. It might be partially due to stress, a never-ending to-do list, and supercharged family dynamic. The bottom line would be, however, I'm not taking care of myself, my needs. I don't regularly decompress after working in a busy, self-giving profession. In other words, I give, give and give throughout the day without taking... yes, without taking any time or doing anything for me. There are many days I don't even sit down but for a few minutes, or take a break... ok, ok... I may take a quick potty break here and there, and only because I undoubtedly, necessarily have to. YES... I often wait until it's an emergency and I have to go.

So... hmmmm.... where was I going with this... STRESS, yes stress! I'm exhausted. Stress exhaustion, physical exhaustion, and mental exhaustion has taken its toll. I'm tired. Really tired. I barely have time to eat breakfast and catch a snack throughout the day, scarfing it down without tasting it so I can continue with my work. When I get home... I'm tired. That's WHEN I get home from running errands, picking up and delivering kids to sports, sporting events and part-time jobs. When I finally do make it home, I wash the morning dishes, put away clothes, and cook dinner, gorge myself on junk .... before I can complete the healthy meal I am cooking...because I'm starving.

Anyways.... let's get on with it. All of "THIS" stuff has added up. Over a period of 4 years, I have gained 30 lbs. I cannot sleep at night, my back hurts, feet ache and I am MISERABLE. My clothes don't fit anymore and I can't stand looking at the person in the mirror.

YES.... it is time for a change. But I'll start tomorrow... HA! Just kidding. I'm starting today. The best thing I could do for myself today was to start cleaning my house. I can't think of the mess and clutter. My brain is messy and cluttered too. HOWEVER, I do have a week off from work, and I'm looking forward to getting some things organized. I'm done... and I'm attempting, NO... NO... I am NOT attempting.... I AM COMMITTED to having a NEW, HEALTHIER, HAPPIER mindset.

Everything is possible, right! I just have to dream big.... or with my physical state being 30 lbs. or more over what it should be.... maybe I in this case I should dream small.

TO BE CONTINUED........