Life Doesn't End With 50!

I'm back.  Yes, I'm going to try once again to maintain a level of commitment to this thing I call life.  I have a doctors appointment for the first time in eight years and I'm going to find out once and for all, 'what is wrong with me'.

In the past two years, many changes have taken place.  I decided to stop homeschooling my children, and went into the public work force.  Public school system that is.  I work at a public school in a lottery funded prek class.  I have 22 preschool aged children in my classroom, and YES, I am able to maintain my sanity.  Who knew... it IS possible.

I didn't realize how much those ladies in the school system ate.  I'm not sure what these ladies are doing with it all.  Could be because all of them are half my age, but you wouldn't know they ate like they did... except for the fact I'm there to witness it.  As they go on eating and about their business... I seem to be the only one gaining.  Shew, and have I gained.

Ok... that's not completely true.  There are maybe 15 women out of the entire school who are struggling like I.  Most of them mothers, or genetically inclined to be heavier than most.  It doesn't seem fair.  

Here's the second stage of my journey.  I'm 47 (sorta) and I am having a difficult go at losing my body fat.  My husband makes it look easy (he's seven years younger).  So yes, it is easier for him, he hasn't quite reached 'old' yet.  Just wait!  He will.  As for now, he's telling me, "Just do this, and Just do that."  Really?  If it was as easy as "just doing something" then I'd be Tosca Reno.  Right?  

I do watch what I eat, I do go without, I do exercise, I do all these things... yet NOTHING seems to be DOING anything back.  Are you with me?

Where am I going with this rant?  Well... sitting here thinking about my doctor's appointment.  There's no telling what this doctor is going to tell me.  She'll probably give me a list of foods, stay away from this, don't eat that.  Exercise.

"UM, HELLO... anybody listening?"

I'm already doing that.  I hope she can tell me something NEW or give me some REAL insight into what is going on.  I eat healthy.  I stay away from junk.  Just because I'm around it all day doesn't mean I indulge in it.  AND, on top of that... it just isn't fair that I gain the weight and all the skinny girls over there make gluttons of themselves and don't gain an ounce.  I simply want in on their secret.  That's all.

If you can't give me THAT... then please, don't tell me what I can and cannot do... because I already "do-do" that.  Get it?  It's crap.  Make sense?

My NEW journey.  I found this thing called TotalC25K.  It's a running program on my phone, and I've been doing it three days a week.  PLUS, I've been trying to work out with weights.  I hate weights.  They are taxing, and I worry if I'm doing it right.

On top of exercising, running 2-3 days a week I'm standing on my feet all day with 22 four and five year olds.  I am somewhat active.  Every other day, when I'm in gym with the kids, I shoot basketball, and play with the children.  I'm moving around.  I am... I really am.

Here's my plan... I found a book on cutting carbs, a DVD on becoming ripped.  I'm going to hook into the regime and not break from it, just to see what happens.  BUT FIRST, I'm going to see what the doctor says.  I'm going to see if I can implement any of the advice this doctor has and JUST see what happens.

In the meantime, I'll continue to do the TotalC25K so I can run that dam run which I've been saying for the past 5-10 years I was going to run.  It comes along the same time each year, in May.  YES, it's Dam Run... to be precise it's The Hartwell Dam Run.  AND YES... we actually run across a dam.

Have a super pleasing Day.  The riches in life are found in LOVE.  Love is found within yourself, and seeing what God sees in you.  No matter your size, shape, age, financial situation... He loves you, and always will.  I know this to be true, and knowing this gets me through the day.

Love,

Sam

Mathew 6:21 "For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." NIV